I've been having difficulty writing, and I don't know why. I feel a bit of divide because my mind thinks that I have the reason to write but my heart seems coiled. Call it plain drain?
Me and my mama on our first family dinner in 2015 |
Call it the look of joy, the look of reassurance, the look of peace ... or the look of being in the moment. Mama's presence in the family always paints everything to us despite the physical distance. When she tells us stories (owned and borrowed) she carries its message in full - like trying to solve a Rubik's Cube. She touches all sides and moves it around until it is back to its original look. In every story, she sees to it that we don't miss the truth and only carry what it offers us best. Her stories tend to shut up that nagging voice within- not enough down time, being away from the family and close friends, no green backyards to comb, higher cost of living and so on. Oh, the heart can actually nag endlessly.
But, with you mama I'm grateful because no matter what a situation brings you always help us find the way that will burst us in us echoes of laughter and decimates negativity.
For this year, I wish that in all all journeys that I start and end, I can always wear your steadfastness, cool and positivity.
Grateful sooo grateful to have you as our friend but more than as the best mother that we could have.